am i really that oblivious

after talking to a good friend, and she asked the question that every single girl loves to hear..... "so are you dating anyone these days?" and i have to once again confirm to her that it is still just me. but it got me to thinking. am i really that oblivious to know when a guy likes me?

i've always been bad at this. i remember in highschool when i heard a friend of me had a crush on me, and you know my reaction.... had i had any idea, i would have been all over that. but unfortunately i was clueless.

fastforward a few years. friends of mine tell me that there are some poor guys out there that want to be more then friends with me, but if you asked me i'd have to be honest and say i do not know what you are talking about. i may joke about it but really, i wouldn't be able to name a single boy who wants to date me. (ok i really do know of one, but that's because he told me so).

i read the book he's just no that into you, but where is the instruction guide to he is just that into you. am i really just oblivious or are am i right in assuming we just friends? maybe i'm just over thinking things. what does it mean if a guy were to do this.....

- a boy starts watching desperate housewives, after you two watch it together
- a boy stays at your apartment until almost 4 am watching tv and talking
- a boy moving just to sit by you on the couch
- a boy wanting to share your blanket with you
- a boy texting you after he gets home from a date with another girl
- a boy bringing you your favorite candy, not once but twice
- a boy telling you he's going to miss you while you're gone
- a boy staying after to talk to you after all your other friends have left
- a boy texting to tell you a show about britney spears is on tv, and texting you through the entire thing like you are watching it together.

ok these are just a few things that have happened lately in my life, one by it self might seem like just a nice jesture, but what if i were to tell you that it was on a couple of guys doing these things. am i missing something here? i hope that i'm not giving these guys the wrong idea.

don't you sometimes wish your life could be one of those choose your own adventure books. that when faced with a choice you can either skip to page 84 or go back to page 23. then when you didn't really like the way the story was going you could go back and try again like the first try never really happened. just think of all the the paths you could get yourself off of and start over. oh if life were only so easy. but seriously think about it..... so you decide to take a job and well it wasn't really what you hoped for so rewind and you are back to where you never took the job and you chose option two and no one knows any different. or even better you know those killer jeans or shoes you want, and you are debating to buy them or not. well, if you had the chance to take them for a test drive and if they brought positive results then keep going, but if not then well why waste that money?

yeah i really shouldn't complain my life right now is pretty fabulous. i graduate in a few months.... finally! i have a great family and friends, but you know a little excitement of seeing how my life could be different wouldn't be something i was object to. you know there are a few choices i might want to try over again. the problem is though, what if the other choice turned out to be worst then the first. that would stink to do choice one over again.

so i guess there is no reason to complain, but still don't you ever wonder what it would be like if you could choose to.

utah

six weeks off of school in the middle of the school year what more could a girl ask for? besides the fact that i am trying to move, and trying to pack my stuff to last me for 6 weeks. packing for 6 weeks in 2 suitcases is really not so easy.
the good news is though is that i get to be in utah for 6 weeks and i can not wait.
the bad news it means it will be my last christmas break from school ever, and that means i'm a little closer to having to find a job. boo who really wants to grow up.

summer time catch up

yes, i know i am horrible about updating this thing.... but it is because i can be. so here are the exciting things that have happened to me in the last few months.

• college world series. that's right after 3 years in omaha i finally made it to some games. my parents came out and spent the weekend with me and the three of us went to a game. i also went to a game with a group of friends and we had a bbq on my roof after that. besides the down pour of rain at the beginning the night ended up being pretty fun.
• brady got home! we were able to get the whole heaps family back together for some family fun, which always has to include some kind of competition so we took it to the miniature golf course. not often you see 4 children over 20 years old mini golfing with their parents, but that was us.
• rotation #2 was at walgreens in omaha. not my dream job.... best thing i've heard about walgreens is them described as the pharmacy mafia.. once you start working there it is for life and they are like a huge family trying to take over the pharmacy world... now is that really who you want filling your prescriptions?
• rotation #3 UTAH.... i worked at rite aid. yes i did feel like i joined the competition, but i felt like i switched to the good side. i gave my first immunization at this place and not the highlight of the experience.
• while in utah we got to go to bear lake... always a fun time for the heaps fam. it is almost one long non-stop weekend of competition. but the skiing was fabulous as always. even skiing is a competition to who is the best skier.... this is one competition i am not even a part of.
• i am now on rotation #4 ... that means in 2 weeks i will be half way done with my 4th year... wow time is flying. this is my ambulatory rotation... i'm working at the lincoln va at the anticoagulation clinic. basically what i do is patients come in and i look at their lab values and determine if their coumadin dose needs to be adjusted.

so basically nothing really interesting has happened in my life... so no need to feel left out that it has been so long since my last post. maybe i'll try to start living a more exciting life, and get better at writing posts, but then again i probably won't.

olympic swim trials

ok ok, so this all happened about a month ago but still who would have guessed in omaha. the one time living next to the qwest center has come in handy. who would have guessed that a basketball stadium could be turned into such an amazing swimming venue. needless to say i visited the trials a couple of times before they were over. anyone who has ever swam competitively knows the art of deck changing very well, but changing on a deck of a swimming pool in front of a hundred or so people no big deal, but there was one guy there who didn't shy away from doing it in front of 13,000 people, i guess he didn't want to miss out on anything. the only thing that could have made this a better experience is if i hadn't been such a slacker growing up and had been able to swim.

where in the world??

fourth year pharmacy student, who would of thought i would get this far in life. i tell you that first semester of pharmacy school i felt like i was starting highschool all over again and wondered if i'd ever be a senior - you know the feeling. the best part about being a fourth year besides the fact that i graduate in less then a year is that i am not stuck in a classroom all day. no i'm currently in atlantic, iowa the home of 7,257 iowans. did you ever know there was such a place? yeah me either. it is in fact the coca-cola capital of iowa, so shame on you for not knowing the location. but for those of you who don't know where it is; it is approximately 70 miles east of omaha. yes i do travel about an hour and fifteen minutes everyday to get there and home and believe or not i get there by 8:00 am. i have been working at cass county memorial hospital- ccmh!! i am doing my general hospital rotation there and it has been lots of fun and a whole new experience. the best part about the place though does have to be the people- they are so much fun.

he's just not that into you.......

i'm currently reading he's just not that into you and well what i have learned so far..... while the author continues to build you up and tell you how fabulous and what a great catch you really are, that if a guy is not breaking down your door, showering you with flowers, and constantly keeping his word and showing you how truly in love with you he is, then he's just not that into you. ok so maybe that might be a slight exaggeration, but maybe not.

through reading this i have been reflecting on my life, i have made a few discoveries, like you know maybe that guy just wasn't that into me or maybe i just wasn't into that guy, no more explanation is needed then that.

i have also realized some other great qualities that i have that are probably really not that great. you know the girl that when she first meets a guy always says the dumbest possible thing. or the girl that rambles constantly when they get nervous. yeah i think i am a wonderful mixture of the two. oh and what's better is i'm sure i think i am funnier then i really am. haha yeah life is good.